glamjam: (Night sky)
I'm having a crappy night.

I know that everything is being exacerbated by the fact that I had issues swallowing my pills when I was sick last week, and I've been bad at getting back on them since. Duly acknowledged and I'm working on it.

Thing 1) Not sure if I'm going to see Ryan this week, which is kind of a big emotional trigger right now. I'm pretty sure I'll see him on Saturday for the Halloween party, but that's not the same with 1-on-1 time that is mostly spent cuddling. I think the concept of not getting time with him during the week is a big issue at the moment because I didn't see him 7 months and although he's closer now I'm seeing him a little at a time, we haven't done a big hangout of multiple days and actually sleeping the night together, which is what I'm used to happening after a prolonged absence. So even though I have him in my life more, it still feels like we're kind of in limbo? Additional challenges include my place being the only location where we can hangout freely and be ourselves; I could go up to Vancouver to his place, but his parents are home a lot and I have to be a platonic friend when I'm there.

Thing 2) My dad's been talking up a storm of my parents moving into a smaller place lately, and while this isn't going to happen anytime soon (say, the next 6-12 months), it's making me freak the fuck out because, hi? I'm unemployed, have no prospects, and nowhere to go when they move into a smaller place that has no room for me.

Thing 3) It's time for my mom's quarterly meeting, which means she's off to Bend, in eastern Oregon, for 3 days and nights. Not a big deal, except that leaves me home with my dad for that time and the way things have been going lately, I'm worried that we're just going to fight the whole time and that does my emotional state no favors.

Thing 4) I didn't get hired back on at Harry & David's, which was really unexpected. I suppose I should have been more cautious about it, but since I left in good standing last season, I thought getting the position again would be fairly easy. So yeah. Feeling really useless in the job regard.

Thing 5) I'm on my period this week, which makes everything exponentially worse.

So basically I want to be wrapped up in a certain someone's arms so I feel safe and less like things are going to hell, but no dice. I have all of the alone and oh jesus, ALL OF THE CRYING. And then I feeling fucking dumb because, hey, it could be so much worse. Cancer, etc.
glamjam: (Shirley; bandana)
Someone told I should post more. *coughMikecough* So this is me doing so.

*I spent 48 hours with my awesome friends in Beaverton to celebrate bff Laura's 25th birthday. We watched gratuitous amounts of Netflix, ate unhealthily, consumed brownies, and crafted. It was fun and I think Laura ended up having a relatively good day, which was my goal.

* Sweetie and co. have landed in the Pacific Northwest safely, with the 2 cats in tow. Hurrah! It was tough to wait a week to see them (haven't seen sweetie since February), but I'm officially visiting on Tuesday and have been promised makeouts and pony-watching. Not sure logistically how this is going to work since, you know, they're living with his very Catholic parents, but I trust that he's got something planned out.

* I was diagnosed as pre-diabetic 2 weeks ago and have been trying to made healthy changes since them. This is going to get its own post at some point.

* I ventured down to Harry & David's on Tuesday and asked to be considered for seasonal work again. I'm supposed to hear from Carole, the manager, at some point.

* My 2 week bruise of death is finally fading. Hopefully I'll be able to return to plasma in the middle of next week because DAMN, I'm broke.

* I GOT TO BE AN EXTRA ON PORTLANDIA. I WANT TO SAY MORE, BUT I CAN'T. STUPID NON-DISCLOSURE AGREEMENT. I'll let you know in January if you can actually see me in an episode. (It would be in one of the feminist bookstore clips, naturally.)

* I've been knitting. It fucking makes my hands hurt, but I've missed it.

Life Update

Sep. 7th, 2012 02:20 am
glamjam: (Shirley; not your kind of people)
I tend to post really sporadically, which is never particularly intentional, I just...don't feel like I have interesting things to post very often? And recently, I haven't had internet access at my house for a solid month, which has sucked.

So. New things.

* I have internet again! :D We kind of got fucked over by our phone company (Frontier. Booooo.) and our account ended, so we ended up not having internet OR a land line phone anymore. This also meant we couldn't get DSL from another company because, duh, no phone line. We signed up for cable internet from Comcast, which is more that we want to spend, but the house needs internet. So Comcast came out, looked around, and pronounced that our house has never had a cable hook-up, so they would have to dig one in first. So we waited a couple of weeks, and finally the crew came by and dug in the cable line to our house via our neighbor's front yard. Two days later, a technician came out and officially connected us. Then my awesome friend Mike came by twice and finagled our devices into providing wifi to the house. So now we have awesome-sauce internetz at my house after a month of nothing. Yay!

* I got a new phone! I'd had my Motorola Backflip for two years and was thus eligible for a new phone upgrade. I didn't have a lot to spend on it, so after a couple of weeks of research, playing with phones in-store, and spreadsheet making for comparisons, I ended up with an HTC Vivid, which is basically a fuckton better than my two-year-old phone. I got a pretty rainbow zebra-stripe case and a screen protector, and me and my new phone are styling. And it's amazing and I love it to death.

* Two weeks after ordering the new phone, I was informed that Zed and Ryan are probably going to be ditching their phones for financial reasons, so there was a big chance of either ending up as the main line on the account, which I can't afford, or cancelling the contract, which none of us could afford. (The main line would be about $100 a month and the early termination fee is $350.) The good part of this is that I just successfully got my new, New phone working today - Mike, the awesome friend from earlier, and his spouse Laura, let me add a line to their plan, so I'll be paying the same amount for my line with just a few plan differences and with a new number. It sucks that it had to be a new line, but Oregon's a different service region than Las Vegas, so we couldn't just transfer it. It sucks that I had to spend effectively an extra $100 on this though.

* However, Zed and Ryan will be ditching their phones because Ryan has resigned from his job that they're moving back up here in less than a month. They're going to live with Ryan's parents until they have new jobs. While I wish that Ryan would have given more notice about the move (he's been thinking about it for months, but only told the rest of us the week he was resigning), I am proud of him for taking that's step, because he's been miserable for the past year, a lot of which has been due to hating his job. So I'm glad that he's doing something that's going to make him happier. And obviously I'm super happy that I'll be able to see my sweetie (and Zed) a lot more.

* I'm also in the process of setting up a second interview with the Japanese supermarket, Uwajimaya. :D
glamjam: (Skivvies!)
I'm leaving this here in case I lose the sheet of paper that it's written on. (I has this done at a party tonight - you give the "Dr." a little form that mentions your main point of stress, $ you have to spend on your prescription, whether you have a car, your favorite food, etc. and they write a pleasure prescription for you. It was pretty cool.)

Pleasure Prescription for Mary

Your RX: For your prescription you will host an Indian food-themed potluck dinner party in your home. Invite some of your favorite people that you bring together. At dinner, reflect on the way that each of these people nourish you, create a community around you. At the end of the night, you will create mail art with a letter to your sweetie, reflecting on your evening, as well as write a letter to yourself, reflecting with gratitude on all the love and goodness you offer the world.

Thank you, Dr. Sady & Dr. Gray

Oh Hey

Jul. 2nd, 2012 07:30 pm
glamjam: (Normal)

It's not amazing, but it's employment. It only took 5-ish months for someone to hire me. :P

I'll be a solo sales associate in a gift shop/convenience stores inside one of 5 hotels in Portland. (Four of them are in downtown and one is at the airport.) It's minimum wage and no benefits, but it'll be three or four shifts a week, which is easily 20+ hours a week and more than I was expecting.

So yeah. Pretty exciting news, although the prospect of getting secret-shopped twice a month is a bit nerve-wracking. Still. Just waiting for the background check to come back, then I'll go in and sign paperwork. Need to get some clothes to work in and find a nose ring (so I'll remember to remove it before work - I have a feeling I'd forget to take out my stud often).

glamjam: (Night sky)
Today's been ridiculously emo for me, but at least last night was okay.

After my shift at IOW, I had a crafting date with Carri. I had to get a couple of shirts to destroy on the way there, which ended up being spendier than I would have liked. Ah well, I'm not known for my ability to plan well. I made Carri a new Beth Ditto and feminist symbol stencil, since the shirts she made with them last week ended up being to small. We both made shirts that said "f*ck ladylike", which I can't wait to wear. (At some point, I'm going to have to make a post all the new shirts I've gotten lately. Argh.)

Carri's friend Shannon was there, too - I don't know her terribly well, but she's quite nice and sarcastic!. After crafting, discussing the various states of romatic attachments and the etiquette of sex clubs, we had dinner - a vegan pizza, italian soda, minty Newman-Os, and a vegan chocolate ganache-banana cream pie.

We also watched "Whip It", which I'd never seen, but is now one of my favorite-est things ever. (And something I desperately need an icon for.)

Other things of interest:
* I have a job interview on Tuesday at Bullseye Glass
* My healthy project started on the first, but being emo is making it difficult
* Haven't talked to Ryan for almost 5 days

glamjam: (Doctor Who; thin air)
Copypasta from Facebook:

a glimpse of zines to come )

Also, I got an email that Planned Parenthood was finally hiring some non-bilingual call centers flunkies, so I applied for that.
glamjam: (bat babies ♥)
I found some jobs to apply to later if I can get out of this funk.

I want to sleep all the time. I miss Ryan a lot. I wish I could hang out with friends more often and not start out the day in a lonely funk. I don't have motivation for anything.



Feb. 20th, 2012 11:21 pm
glamjam: (Modest)
I'm typing up stuff about the past week, mostly for myself but also for those of you who care.

In the meantime, here are some things I plan to do tomorrow:

- donate plasma and get some monies

- NOT oogle new phones because I can't afford and don't need one despite the prettiness of Stephanie's Droid 3. >_>

- probably go to Goodwill because I haven't been to a thrift store in forever and shopping is good for depression

Got an awesome sweater and Sarah Waters latest novel ! :D

- run my clothes from the motel through the drier to kill possible bedbugs (or fleas? whatever the fuck bit me!)

- job hunt and send resumes/cover letters to the couple of jobs I found tonight
Applied for a job at OMSI, whoo!

- clean in my room a bit

- ponder what I want "eating well" to mean to me

- possibly give myself a sleep schedule

- continue reading "The Hunger Games"
glamjam: (Amanda Palmer; keyboard)
I am!

Getting out of bed/out of the house is always the hardest part, though. I'm still in PJ's and sitting on my bed, but I'll be out of the house in half an hour or so.

Today shall consist of:
- donating plasma/getting $36 for it
- getting delicious Indian noms from Bombay Chaat House for the first time in 2 months (I think I'm going to get shahi paneer, garlic naan, and a mango lassi OMNOM)
- possibly go to Powell's and finally pick up a complete set of Sherlock Holmes
- get the February print calendar for In Other Words printed
- go to IOW and have a volunteer pajama party with snacks, making tie-dye t-shirts, and 80's music

So yes. It should be good. :)
glamjam: (Default)
I've been kind of depressed yesterday and today (thus far). Got into it with dad yesterday, got belittled, cried, got pissed, had to go to work after. Ick.

I have a bit of time before work today, so I'm going to try and leave early and get my holds from the library and maybe go to the new coffee shop in downtown Gresham. I had a mocha there last week, but I haven't tried the chai yet.

Also, I don't think I've mentioned it yet, but my job DOESN'T end as of the first. I guess a number of people are going to be taking some vacation now that we're not busy, so my manager's going to keep me on for awhile. She said it's probably not permanent and obviously the hours will be a lot less, but still!
glamjam: (Default)
I sent out two of my three holiday packages on Monday. Total shipping cost? $50.45 Good thing I love my friends?

I don't want to go to work today, but that's nothing new. At least I'm starting a bit later today AND this is only an 8 hour day, not an 8.5 hours day. (Yes, it makes a difference.) I'm still not sure how long the job is going to last - I know that I'm working through the last week of December, but scheduling beyond that hasn't been posted yet. I asked the assistant manager if he knew anything, but he didn't. Oh well.

Plans are already being made for when I'm unemployed again, however. I have a stack of books to gleefully work my way through, I have big arting plans (once I've excavated my arting area), and I have food plans, which is probably the most important point on this list.

I signed back up with Weight Watchers in November, but I haven't really been able to keep up with tracking because of work and how little I'm home/able to cook. Obviously, once I'm unemployed, I'll have more time on my hands, so I'm going to try doing the healthy-food-eating that I really *should* be doing (PCOS, predisposed for diabeetus, etc). I'm trying to put together a stack of recipes and whatnot before Jan. 1 hits so that I'm not scrambling from the get-go (but I probably will be anyway). The main goal is to eat a shit ton more fruit and veg, cut out a lot of processed stuff, and drastically reduce the amount of sugar I'm consuming (limiting myself to once can of soda per week is likely to be the biggest hurdle). I'm also going to try getting back into yoga regularly, but that's still on the optional side of things.

(cross-posting to LJ from DW because LJ's lack of subject-line in comments is making me grumpy)


May. 5th, 2011 05:36 pm
glamjam: (Young Ones; who likes me?)
My 26th birthday was last week (on the 26th :P).

I had a good time that day. I took the train downtown and got a free scoop of ice cream at Ben & Jerry's. I also got free samosas for lunch because Amritpal at Bombay Chaat House asked how my day was and I said it was going well because of my birthday. He wouldn't let me pay for my samosas after that, which made the day even more awesome. (Bombay Chaat House ♥) That night my parents and I ate at the Horse Brass Pub - omnom fish and chips, ginger ale, and bread pudding.

Laura and I were supposed to do Voodoo Doughnuts that night, but everyone else who was supposed to come canceled at the last minute, so I rescheduled that for this past Sunday. Again, no one showed up at Voodoo besides Laura and I, but when we went to Shari's later for late night coffee, Dan and Deyvyd showed up and I had a *really* good time with them all. I don't really see friends in groups these days, so it was really refreshing to be in a group of four AND be able to reminisce about high school and how people were really silly on the band trip to Hawai'i in 2002 (the baritone player shaved his chest immediately before going into the ocean and a flute who was very pale and red-headed ended up turning read as a lobster). While we were at Shari's, Laura bought be a birthday pie and had the staff stick a candle in it. Then she, Dan, and Deyvyd sang to me and we gorged on pie (this was after the doughnuts, mind you!).

I admit to being kind of bummed out in the birthday present department earlier in the week, but this really good night with friends helped a lot to alleviate that. My parents gave me a subscription to a magazine and an IOU for a long overdue pair of new glasses. Laura gave me a bracelet with Catholic saints on it and some bacon-free clam chowder base from the coast. :D I ended up buying myself a book as a present with a Borders coupon, too.

P.S. While at Voodoo Doughnuts, I had my annual birthday cock'n'balls doughnut. Laura bought it for me and asked them to write on it. Little did I know what she would write. >__>

mah doughnut! )
glamjam: (Amanda Palmer; keyboard)
Heart-bullet time. :P

♥ After nearly a month of cleaning, my room is nearly done. I've still got a bit to do, but it's kind of amazing how improved things are.

♥ I finally got picture frames for the art I have from Cally and Jill. I got them at the thrift store and need to paint them, but they'll be customized to the art they house and I'm excited to finally have the art up on my wall. :3

♥ While at the thrift store, I "accidentally" acquired three more Harry Potter volumes. Now I only need two more to have the complete series. :D

♥ Drama week seems to finally have abated...which is a good thing since my ability to deal with and be there for people was starting to disintegrate. I have no problem being there for my friends when they need me and if someone called up right now with a new situation on their hands, I'd still be all ears and I'd do what I could for them, but I'm just kind of drained regardless. EVERYONE NEEDS TO HAVE A WEEK OF HAPPY, OKAY? PLEASE? (A taste of my week: a good friend got accused of stealing by her parents and is now couch surfing, a friend was having a nerve-wracking debate over joining the military, a formerly close friend contacted me for the first time in months to tell me I hurt her badly when she's the one who ditched me for no obvious reason (and apparently deliberately tried to find evidence to show me that my boyfriend is Bad For Me), another friend was vaguely suicidal after the end of a relationship, and then I had my own day of relationship-limbo hell.)

♥ And finally, new default icon and layout. Whoo!
glamjam: (Black Books; procrastination)
Oh dear, I found a lot of feeds to add to my reading page, which is quickly becoming as busy as my LJ f-list.

Also, I should be walking to work now. >_>;
glamjam: (Carrie; twinklestah-style)
I figured I should make a more normal post. :P

* My B.A. should really be in procrastination, since I seem to do more of that than actual *school work*. I should be finishing my reading for art history, but instead I'm typing this up and listening to the new Depeche Mode album. Oops!

* I'm currently reading Down and Dirty Pictures: Miramax, Sundance, and the Rise of Independent Film by Peter Biskind because Kevin Smith mentioned it on one of the early episodes of the SModcast. The book is really interesting and I'm learning a lot since I'm not that big of a film nut. I had no idea about how the various companies involved in making/distributing films interacted or about such things as "development hell" before and I always grin when one of the films I love is mentioned (Clerks, Velvet Goldmine, the Piano, Reservoir Dogs). The Weinsteins sure sound like bastards, though. D:

* I'm still plugging away on Summerwrite, but I'm not making the daily word counts yet. I don't really care since I'm at least getting something down. I'm sure the team I'm on isn't pleased about my word counts, though. :P I'm working on a new project, though. It's something that been congealing in my head for a couple of years - something initially inspired by watching the Young Ones too often and wishing there was something else similar to watch or read. Whatever I end up writing for it is going to be really rough since I don't have much planned out.

And now I think I'm going to watch an episode of House. I've been slacking off this season...
glamjam: (Garbage; handkerchief)
Yes, this is all I post lately. :P

Master To-Do List )
glamjam: (The Young Ones; student life)
I just changed my layout for the first time in a long time. It's weird not having Vyvyan anymore, but I was ready for a change...

I'm slowly gearing up for NaNoWriMo on Saturday, including planning to stay up until midnight start writing the moment Nov. 1 begins. :P

I have a bunch of homework due in the next few weeks, too. 20 more paintings for Painting and a book for Book Arts. I have good ideas for both of them, I just hope I can get everything done. D:

I also have a strong urge to watch "Shaun of the Dead". Maybe tomorrow....


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