Therefore, a bullet list.
* I've been more depressed than normal for the past couple of weeks and it's been difficult. Especially for the last week, Ryan's been in a bad mood and therefore uncommunicative, which makes things worse. I probably spend the most time with him and with Laura and Mike, who are out of town dealing with Mike's cancer surgery. It's been pretty lonely, even though I've been trying to find ways to keep myself engaged and in a good mood.
* A good example of succeeding (mostly) at a good mood happened yesterday. I went downtown on my own with a fist full of dollars from donating plasma and decided to enjoy myself. I stopped by the Saturday Market and got a new hair stick since I accidentally murdered my old one last fall - the new one is pretty and has a star on it. Then I got a mango bubble tea shake...thing. I think it was really just a mango shake with boba/tapioca, but whatever. IT WAS DELICIOUS. Made with actual mango and only $3! I also went to Fat Fancy to actually shop and got a cute red dress for summer and a kick-ass t-shirt that was made locally (it's lavender and has a screen print of Daisy Duck that says "You're nothing without feminist art." \o/ )
Then I went to Sizzle Pie and had some pizza, and endless soda, and finished a book.
* I've been reading a lot of Dorothy Allison lately and it's felt good. It's been a while since I've read a book which...spurred me into actually thinking and being analytical, and Allison's "Skin: Talking About Sex, Class, and Literature"(1994) did just that. It's been really refreshing. (And I get to see her speak on April 10th! :D :D :D )
* I started a separate account for food stuff. http://lavender-tea.dreamwidth.org/
It's sort of for whatever relating to food and eating, a space to talk about my food issues, etc. I felt that needed it's own space separate from my main journal.
* Tomorrow, I'm going to go outside and measure the plot of land that I talked dad into letting me use this summer. I want to try growing a couple of vegetables, along with putting some of my herbs into the ground. I'm going to ask a few friends what they've had good luck growing and go from there. (I'll probably do a whole post on that at some point.)
* 60 books were culled from my book shelves last night and you can't even tell. THAT'S HOW MANY GODDAMN BOOKS I HAVE.